tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-21311262180375974782024-03-21T20:46:58.474-04:00My Utmost...a blog created to help me meet the challenge of having a quiet time with God every day. Most of the time I will be using Oswald Chambers' devotional, <i>My Utmost for His Highest</i>. On occasion, I have given myself permission to divert from that. As long as God gets the glory!Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.comBlogger112125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-48231999658782699562018-08-27T11:29:00.002-04:002019-03-17T19:01:41.408-04:00Living Your Theology<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Then Jesus told them, “You are going to have the light just a little while longer. <span style="background-color: #ead1dc;">Walk while you have the light, before darkness overtakes you.</span> The man who walks in the dark does not know where he is going. Put your trust in the light while you have it, so that you may become the sons of light.” When he had finished speaking, Jesus left and hid himself from them. John 12:35-36</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-family: "lato" , sans-serif; font-size: 23px;">Your theology must work itself out, exhibiting itself in <u>your most common everyday relationships.</u> Our Lord said, “…unless your righteousness </span><em style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; caret-color: rgb(58, 54, 53); color: #3a3635; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 23px;">exceeds</em><span style="background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-family: "lato" , sans-serif; font-size: 23px;"> the righteousness of the scribes and Pharisees, you will by no means enter the kingdom of heaven” (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+5:20" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #428bca; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 23px; text-decoration: none;">Matthew 5:20</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-family: "lato" , sans-serif; font-size: 23px;">). In other words, you must be more moral than the most moral person you know. <u>You may know all about the doctrine of sanctification, but are you working it out in the everyday issues of your life? </u>(Chambers-emphasis mine)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Being a Christian is hard. It is hard to keep loving people who act so unlovable. It is hard to continue to forgive. Relationships are hard. Jamie and I were watching a movie last night. (<i>Before We Go</i>) There was this great quote in the movie that resonated with me. The main characters of the movie stopped briefly on the streets of Manhattan to speak with an old man who invited them into his apartment. He spoke to the woman about relationships. Here is the quote: “There is no perfect. There will always be struggle. You just need to choose who you wanna struggle with.”</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">I don’t know exactly where I am going with this. I guess I want to say that it is so easy to let darkness overtake me when I feel wronged. When I feel as though I have the right to be angry. When the enemy whispers into my ear that I have made the wrong choice regarding with whom to struggle. It’s a lie. The enemy is a destroyer. He wants to destroy destroy destroy. That’s his job. That is why I must continue to choose to walk in the light and keep loving and forgiving. I must live it out while interacting with my husband and children. Coworkers, siblings, neighbors. </span>Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-59788822278077389702017-11-13T21:02:00.000-05:002017-11-13T21:02:16.401-05:00Faith or Experience?<span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">I have been crucified with Christ</span><span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-29102A" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NIV-29102A" title="See cross-reference A">A</a>)" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me.</span><span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-29102B" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NIV-29102B" title="See cross-reference B">B</a>)" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> The life I now live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God,</span><span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-29102C" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NIV-29102C" title="See cross-reference C">C</a>)" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> who loved me</span><span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-29102D" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NIV-29102D" title="See cross-reference D">D</a>)" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: white; font-family: "Helvetica Neue", Verdana, Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> and gave himself for me. Galatians 2:20</span><br />
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<span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 23px;">I am guilty of being in my own little world quite often. I get lost in my memories and self pity. Sometimes it launches into an all out war of unforgiveness toward others...two people in particular who I am no longer able to interact with. I have been convicted about this sin of mine and am happy </span><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-family: Lato, sans-serif; font-size: 23px;">to say that I am finally winning this one too. I am finally being able to let it go and forgive. They really didn’t know they were in the wrong. They hurt me deeply, but they were either reacting out of their own hurt or truly believing that something else was going on that wasn’t. (Or both) Also...the Lord ordained all of my days for me...including the deep valleys of my life. (Psalm 139:16)</span><br />
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…I say to you, he who believes in Me,…greater works than these he will do, because I go to My Father. —<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?version=31&search=John+14%3A12" style="box-sizing: border-box; color: #646b71; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">John 14:12</a></h4>
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-size: 23px;">And He promises, “Whatever you ask in My name, that I will do…” (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+14:13" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #428bca; font-size: 23px; text-decoration: none;">John 14:13</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-size: 23px;">). Yet we refuse to pray unless it thrills or excites us, which is the most intense form of spiritual selfishness.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-size: 23px;">We must learn to work according to God’s direction, and He says to </span><em style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #3a3635; font-size: 23px;">pray</em><span style="background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-size: 23px;">. “Pray the Lord of the harvest to send out laborers into His harvest” (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+9:38" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #428bca; font-size: 23px; text-decoration: none;">Matthew 9:38</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-size: 23px;">).</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #3a3635; font-family: "lato" , sans-serif; font-size: 23px;">I never thought of my not praying as a form of selfishness before. I guess it is. It seems like the more time goes on...the older I get, the less spiritual I actually become. I am shrinking spiritually. Why am I doubting more? Why am I more cynical than ever? </span>Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-90014855149521979682017-07-08T23:10:00.001-04:002017-07-08T23:10:37.773-04:00<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">…choose for yourselves this day whom you will serve… —Joshua 24:15</span><br />
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A person’s will is embodied in the actions of the whole person. I cannot give up my will— I must exercise it, putting it into action. I must will to obey, and I must will to receive God’s Spirit.<br />
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Your choice must be a deliberate determination— it is not something into which you will automatically drift.<br />
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You have no business trying to find out where God is leading— the only thing God will explain to you is Himself.</span><br />
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I think that if it was at all possible for me to meet Oswald Chambers in person, he would be gravely disappointed in me.Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-68548194376237161732017-07-05T16:58:00.001-04:002017-07-05T17:11:21.622-04:00Come as you are...holy garb will be provided<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Commit your way to the Lord, trust also in Him, and He shall bring it to pass. —Psalm 37:5</span><br />
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This is the over-riding theme in all of my devotional lately. "Trust in the Lord. It's all going to be good." Well...that and this one which I have also put into laymen' terms. "That which does not kill us, makes us stronger." (Okay...that is not in the Bible per say, but in so many words it is.)<br />
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Here are the gems from today's Oswald Chambers devotional.<br />
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LOL. That's all I can seem to come up with for that one. Actually I have a little more. Sometimes even when I consult him the plans seem to get upset. Maybe there is a communication gap going on here. Reminds me of my husband and I. I will say something to my husband (or he to me) and we seem to have an understanding. After all... we are both speaking English and grew up speaking that language within the same geographical region of the USA...so we aren't getting confused by different phraseologies. Later on however, we will have this problem because we misunderstood one another. Am I just not understanding God? (I know it isn't the other way around)<br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">If we have the idea that we have to put on our “spiritual face” before we can come near to God, then we will never come near to Him. We must come as we are.</span><br />
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This one is a comfort...especially seeing how I can <u>never</u> be perfect. So far from it I could cry sometimes. "Why am I like this?" I often ask myself. I know I have issues...I admit it. I can't get that spiritual face on all the time. I misplaced that quite a long time ago. You know what is kind of funny...or not, depending on how you look at it. I used to consider myself to be quite spiritually together and mature. (Makes me kind of laugh now) I seemed very wise to myself. That would have been circa 1984 or so. All knowing at the age of 17. Now... I'm even wiser because I understand just how dim witted I can be spiritually. I'm just me. I fret. I obsess. I don't pray the way I ought to. I say dumb things that irritate people. I'm sinful in ways that I don't even recognize as sinful. I am just me. The imperfect one. Luckily I don't have to be perfect to be loved by Him. He says, "Come as you are." He will provide the garments of righteousness. Amen!<br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">You cannot hoard things for a rainy day if you are truly trusting Christ. Jesus said, “Let not your heart be troubled…” (John 14:1). </span><br />
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So is that why we can't get ahead financially? I would like to trust in a great financial plan. My plan is actually biblically sound. Live simply. Pay off all the debts. Keep socking away funds for retirement and also...for emergencies and for that rainy day. The one where we decide to finish fixing up the house...or buy a new sofa. Sounds good? I think it does...but we can never seem to get there. Sometimes I wonder if God prefers us to live on the edge of panic simply so that we are forced to acknowledge that we have to rely 100% on Him rather than on our own ingenuity. I won't even touch the topic of learning to be content!<br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">God will not keep your heart from being troubled. It is a command— “Let not….” To do it, continually pick yourself up, even if you fall a hundred and one times a day, until you get into the habit of putting God first and planning with Him in mind.</span><br />
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Ah, nuts! That sounds like work to me. You mean, I have to figure out a way to stop fretting and obsessing about things on my own? I have to keep getting up and dusting myself off to try again? I have to admit that this sounds like a recipe for failure. I have been trying and failing at this for so long now. I am weary of standing up again.Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-90480805355702129892017-07-04T20:36:00.000-04:002017-07-05T15:52:44.868-04:00Fret not thyself<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Do not fret— it only causes harm. —Psalm 37:8</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">It's easy to say, "Rest in the Lord, and wait patiently for Him" (Psalm 37:7), until our own little world is turned upside down and we are forced to live in confusion and agony like so many other people. Is it possible to “rest in the Lord” then?...Resting in the Lord is not dependent on your external circumstances at all, but on your relationship with God Himself.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Worrying always results in sin. We tend to think that a little anxiety and worry are simply an indication of how wise we really are, yet it is actually a much better indication of just how wicked we are. Fretting rises from our determination to have our own way. Our Lord never worried and was never anxious, because His purpose was never to accomplish His own plans but to fulfill God’s plans. Fretting is wickedness for a child of God. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">Deliberately tell God that you will not fret about whatever concerns you. All our fretting and worrying is caused by planning without God. (Chambers)</span><br />
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Well, I guess that is pretty straight-forward. I have to admit that I know this all to be true. I know that what is blocking me from moving forward in my walk with the Lord is my "fretting" over the past.<br />
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I fret about: What someone thinks is true. What went wrong. How I couldn't make it right. Unforgiveness towards people. Anger that I refuse to hand over to the Lord <u>for good</u>. My constant reviewing and examination of the events of the past....and looking at it and somehow convincing myself that it is all helping me somehow. Looking at it from every angle is <u>not</u> helping me. I have fooled myself into thinking that it is helping me come to grips with what I can't undo. What I cannot change. I tell myself that it is giving me answers...but it is really a refusal to accept the Lord's plan as best.<br />
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Let me repeat that. It is really a refusal to accept the Lord's plan as best.<br />
Truth!Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-88445281038467624102017-07-02T10:10:00.001-04:002017-07-05T17:31:39.676-04:00What is wrong with me?<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">To be a disciple is to be a devoted bondservant motivated by love for the Lord Jesus. Many of us who call ourselves Christians are not truly devoted to Jesus Christ. No one on earth has this passionate love for the Lord Jesus unless the Holy Spirit has given it to him. We may admire, respect, and revere Him, but we cannot love Him on our own. The only One who truly loves the Lord Jesus is the Holy Spirit, and it is He who has “poured out in our hearts” the very “love of God” (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Romans+5:5" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 22px; text-decoration: none;">Romans 5:5</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">).</span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;"><br /></span>Perhaps this is my problem. The Holy Spirit has passed by me. I'm always struggling to feel any devotion at all...and I almost always feel next to nothing. I believe in God. I believe in Jesus. I just can't get going with this "devotion towards Him." I'm all over the board. I'm distracted by everything. I've asked for help from the Holy Spirit and I never notice any change. I just feel like I am a pretty rotten Christian compared to so many of my family members and friends.<br />
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I go to church. I bring my Bible. I take notes. I write really cool points in the margins. I try to pray. I try to have regular devotions. I try to consult the Lord with my troubles. I try to thank Him for the blessings. I am in a Bible Study. I have even been a Bible Study leader. I just feel like everything is a huge effort with very sparse results. I teach my children Biblical ways. I took them to Sunday school. I sent them to Christian summer camps. We have a verse of the week at the dinner table. We pray at the dinner table. I used to pray with the children before the went to bed....now they've grown up. All three go to Christian colleges. All three seem to have active and genuine faith. Yet I feel empty and fake so much of the time.<br />
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What am I doing wrong?Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com4tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-33771766065884493862017-07-01T12:47:00.003-04:002017-07-02T09:50:22.823-04:00Time to pick up the tools and start working!<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: "open sans" , "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 18px;">You will by no means get out of there till you have paid the last penny. —</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?version=31&search=Matthew+5%3A26" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: 'Open Sans', Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 18px; outline: 0px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">Matthew 5:26</a><br />
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We seem to be on the same theme here in my utmost. Trial is God's way of purifying us and bringing us to Himself. Trial is necessary for our faith to grow. It may seem as though we are being unjustly punished and that it will last forever...and that God hates us. Not true. It is really the love of God drawing us ever closer...testing us. It is also called life. Life brings bumps and bruises along the way. We must decide what we will do with the bumps and bruises we receive. Are we simply going to whine about it and resort to spending our lives curled up in a fetal position under the covers of our bed? Are we going to obsess about our troubles with an endless loop of memories playing over and over in our minds?<br />
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How do we put it to good use? How do I move on from here? How do I pour what I've learned back into others so I can encourage them? How do I do this? Has the Lord opened a door that he is asking you to step through in faith? He has brought you this far...now it is time for something new. Go through the door.<br />
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I love Oswald Chambers because he doesn't mince words.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">He urged you to come to judgment immediately when He convicted you, but you did not obey. Then the inevitable process began to work, bringing its inevitable penalty. Now you have been “thrown into prison, [and]…you will by no means get out of there till you have paid the last penny” (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=5:25-26" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 22px; text-decoration: none;">5:25-26</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">). Yet you ask, “Is this a God of mercy and love?” When seen from God’s perspective, it is a glorious ministry of love. God is going to bring you out pure, spotless, and undefiled, but He wants you to recognize the nature you were exhibiting— the nature of demanding your right to yourself. </span><br />
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Stop obsessing! Get out of your head! Quit feeling sorry for yourself, roll up your sleeves, look around for others who may be hurting...and get to work!Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-12142816278520429312017-06-28T08:09:00.000-04:002017-07-05T17:25:28.915-04:00I surrender all....still working on thatWho, then, are those who fear the Lord?<br />
He will instruct them in the ways they should choose.<br />
They will spend their days in prosperity,<br />
and their descendants will inherit the land.<br />
<u>The Lord confides in those who fear him;</u><br />
he makes his covenant known to them.<br />
My eyes are ever on the Lord,<br />
for only he will release my feet<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">Are we so intimately united to Jesus Christ’s idea of prayer— “Your will be done” (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Matthew+6:10" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 22px; text-decoration: none;">Matthew 6:10</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">)— that we catch the secrets of God? (Taken from Oswald Chambers' June 3rd entry)</span><br />
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This is really a very tough thing to do...to be that "intimately united to Jesus." It is harder than I ever imagined it would be at the start of my journey to become so united with Him 31 years ago. It was the fall of 1986, when I was called upon to endure a tremendous trial that would stretch on for years to come. I was 19 years old and had just gone away to a four years university to begin my sophomore year of college. Here's a brief testimony of that.<br />
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That year...I had been convicted by the Holy Spirit that I wasn't putting Christ first in my life. I didn't love Him <u>the most</u>. I had put someone else in the first place slot...and that person was Me. I had originally believed that the person I had placed there had been the young man I had been dating...and while he was really close to the top slot, when I really stopped to consider that deeply, I had to come to the truth: that the person I put first was none other that myself. I wanted what I wanted. Period. I wanted love, security, and comfort....to be taken care of (and really...who doesn't want that?). I sought that security out by looking to the wrong source. At that point, I was fairly certain that I would be taken care of and loved forever by another person. I don't think this is unusual for the human species to seek security in the wrong place. For me it was a person who would love me...for another it could be in a job, money, or position of prestige. It can also be placed in your own ability and intelligence.<br />
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That September, I went on a Christian retreat with my college fellowship group. During that retreat, I went to hear a middle aged woman speak about what it truly meant to become a woman of God. I knew that I was far from being the woman that she described. I saw in her, a beautiful peace and gentleness that can only come from the Lord. I also understand now that it probably came after years of trial and tribulation. After getting the wind knocked out of her by life's circumstances. In order to become that peaceful...you need to have a deep faith. What is faith that hasn't been tried? It isn't anything! Faith is a muscle that must be built up. Just as lifting weights makes you stronger....going through trial increases faith (unless you decide that it isn't worth it in the long run and you give it all up).<br />
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At that retreat, I made a commitment to allow the Lord to make me into woman of God <i>no matter what it took. </i>Yes....I really did use those exact words in my prayer...and I <i>meant</i> them. During the course of that school year I was stripped of everything I had originally believed would ultimately bring me security and happiness. Due to a mental health issue, I experienced extreme confusion in both mood and my thinking. I was rejected and abandoned. I was falsely accused of things I hadn't done and my reputation was tarnished. I became incapable of nourishing relationships. I lost the person I had loved deeply and in whom I had believed would love me back forever. I had a very broken relationship with my mother. I also lost many "so called friends" on my campus. I had no energy...nor any ability to make rational decisions. I encountered humiliation and shame because of some of the things I had done and said during the height of my illness. I couldn't even count on my academic ability, as my grades suffered greatly. Thinking became extremely difficult for me. The depression I entered was so profound that I seriously considered taking my own life. Basically, I had lost myself...and it was pretty traumatic. This little paragraph doesn't begin to accurately describe the darkness and emotional pain I had entered. Throughout this entire time, a voice would often whisper in my mind and it would ask, "Do you <i>still</i> want to become a woman of God?" I would answer, "Yes....no matter what it takes." And then I would go through even more hell. I somehow knew that everything I was going through was connected to my strong desire to thoroughly surrender my will to His to become a <i>woman of God</i>. I was in one of the biggest spiritual battles of my life.<br />
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That battle has continued throughout the rest of my life, although not alway in quite as severe a form. The battle rages on nonetheless. Becoming a woman of God is all about surrendering what I falsely perceive will bring me happiness and security. It is also surrendering control. I have continued to struggle to consistently surrender it all to Jesus...although it has become considerably easier. That hymn with the title <i>I Surrender All </i>has new meaning for me. What have I had to surrender? I have had to surrender some things that I once considered to be basic rights of a middle class American woman. Some of the things on my list might seem silly, and they really are, but Satan knows exactly what buttons to push...even the petty ones.<br />
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Here is a partial list of some of the rights I've sometimes thought I should have been allowed to claim...just by being alive on this earth. The right to enjoy a comfortable life. The right to be prideful. The right to live a pain-free life...both emotional and physical. The right to have control over all the outcomes in my life. The right to never having to experience extreme brokenness. The right to be understood. The right to a fair trial. The right to harbor anger (a biggie for me).<br />
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We all have our own lists. It all comes down to surrendering these rights and realizing that life is about learning to trust Jesus...not necessarily living happily ever after with all my dreams coming true. Where would I be if I had all my rights delivered to me? Would I understand my need for Christ? Would I have even an inkling of empathy towards those who suffer? Pain is necessary for personal growth as well as learning to surrender to Christ.Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-54539662340522628532017-06-27T12:07:00.000-04:002017-06-27T12:08:55.830-04:00He promises that He will deliver...even when life here is not fair.<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: "open sans" , "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 18px;">"…I am with you to deliver you," says the Lord. —</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?version=31&search=Jeremiah+1%3A8" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: 'Open Sans', Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 18px; outline: 0px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">Jeremiah 1:8</a><br />
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What a wonderful promise this is. I have such a sense of peace when I read a verse like this. The following is a truth that has taken me years and years to realize in my life.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">Jesus says, in effect, “Don’t worry about whether or not you are being treated justly.” Looking for justice is actually a sign that we have been diverted from our devotion to Him. Never look for justice in this world, but never cease to give it. If we look for justice, we will only begin to complain and to indulge ourselves in the discontent of self-pity, as if to say, “Why should I be treated like this?” (Oswald Chambers)</span><br />
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Apparently, I am not alone in my struggle with this concept.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">Even the most devout among us become atheistic in this regard— we do not believe Him. We put our common sense on the throne and then attach God’s name to it. We </span><em style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #555555; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 18px;">do</em><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"> lean to our own understanding, instead of trusting God with all our hearts (see </span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Proverbs+3:5-6" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; text-decoration: none;">Proverbs 3:5-6</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">). (Oswald Chambers)</span><br />
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The Lord often drives home the same truths to me again and again. In this case, surrendering my right to fairness. I'm learning, albeit slowly. I am grateful for the Lord's great patience with me.Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-23530824863889445712017-06-26T10:34:00.001-04:002017-06-26T10:34:25.043-04:00Drawing in God's grace....NOW!<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: "open sans" , "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 18px;">We…plead with you not to receive the grace of God in vain. —</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?version=31&search=2+Corinthians+6%3A1" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: 'Open Sans', Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 18px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">2 Corinthians 6:1</a><br />
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Here's one of the quotes today from Oswald Chamber's study.<br />
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I'm afraid that I must admit that I am often slow to pray. It is not always a natural reflex for me. How often do I battle it out and then later...when I'm at my wit's end do I stop and pray? Haven't I learned anything yet? I am in the remedial "draw on God's grace now class." I'm not making the grade.<br />
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More good stuff.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">Let circumstances take you where they will, but keep drawing on the grace of God in whatever condition you may find yourself.</span><br />
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Sounds fairly straight forward and simple, doesn't it?<br />
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Something I feel drawn to ponder.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">“…having nothing….” Never hold anything in reserve. Pour yourself out, giving the best that you have, and always be poor. Never be diplomatic and careful with the treasure God gives you. “…and yet possessing all things”— this is poverty triumphant </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">(</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=2+Corinthians+6:10" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; text-decoration: none;">2 Corinthians 6:10</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">).</span><br />
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I guess this would be called being authentic. God already knows who I am ...what I am. I needn't hold back from him. I am also finding more and more as I grow older that being authentic before others often ends up blessing. If you are real with your struggles, then others won't feel needlessly intimidated by the "perfect version of you" and they will be encouraged, knowing that they are not alone.Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-10209888895101659542017-06-18T10:25:00.002-04:002017-06-27T12:11:50.010-04:00Learning to walk on water<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: "open sans" , "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 18px;">…Peter…walked on the water to go to Jesus. But when he saw that the wind was boisterous, he was afraid… —</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?version=31&search=Matthew+14%3A29-30" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: 'Open Sans', Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 18px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">Matthew 14:29-30</a><br />
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Don't look at your circumstances...trust the Lord. When we simply use our earthly wisdom...we can see circumstances as hopeless. I've fallen into this trap many times. I've looked about me and said, "Life isn't fair." "If only...." "I'm doomed." "We'll never be able to ....."<br />
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Life doesn't always turn out the way you plan it...and it really is hopeless apart from the Lord. But...He is powerful. He enables. He will never leave us nor will He forsake us. His plans are often quite different than our plans. When something catastrophic happens...we must remember that He is God. He doesn't have to answer to anyone. He gets to choose.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">If you debate for even one second when God has spoken, it is all over for you. Never start to say, “Well, I wonder if He really did speak to me?” Be reckless immediately— totally unrestrained and willing to risk everything— by casting your all upon Him. You do not know when His voice will come to you, but whenever the realization of God comes, even in the faintest way imaginable, be determined to recklessly abandon yourself, surrendering everything to Him. It is only through abandonment of yourself and your circumstances that you will recognize Him. You will only recognize His voice more clearly through recklessness— being willing to risk your all. (Oswald Chambers)</span><br />
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People, ....please take this warning seriously. I heard his voice, ignored his warning...went my own way and suffered the consequences. A lesson that was learned the hard way. Practice self-abandonment in favor of His ways!<br />
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God is good. He has our best interests in mind. Trust Him.Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-89721463256261667012017-06-17T10:49:00.003-04:002017-06-17T10:51:03.135-04:00Judging Others<span class="text Rom-2-17" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">17 </span>Now you, if you call yourself a Jew; if you rely on the law and boast in God;<span class="crossreference" data-cr="#cen-NIV-27980A" data-link="(<a href="#cen-NIV-27980A" title="See cross-reference A">A</a>)" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-size: 0.625em; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;"></span></span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> </span><span class="text Rom-2-18" id="en-NIV-27981" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">18 </span>if you know his will and approve of what is superior because you are instructed by the law;</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> </span><span class="text Rom-2-19" id="en-NIV-27982" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">19 </span>if you are convinced that you are a guide for the blind, a light for those who are in the dark,</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> </span><span class="text Rom-2-20" id="en-NIV-27983" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">20 </span>an instructor of the foolish, a teacher of little children, because you have in the law the embodiment of knowledge and truth—</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> </span><span class="text Rom-2-21" id="en-NIV-27984" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "helvetica neue" , "verdana" , "helvetica" , "arial" , sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><span class="versenum" style="box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "arial"; font-size: 12px; font-weight: bold; line-height: 22px; position: relative; top: 0px; vertical-align: top;">21 </span>you, then, who teach others, do you not teach yourself? 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Interestingly enough, sometimes I find that my criticism is directed towards myself.<br />
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I have very little to add to this devotional today. Sometimes I have many of my own thoughts...but not today. I admit to being critical of others at times....and it is wrong. I haven't walked in their shoes. I am so thankful for the grace of God with my own blunders and mistakes. Chambers ends his devional with the following statement. My prayer is that I can one day say the same with absolute sincerity.<br />
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Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-78914707393679879622017-05-21T10:01:00.001-04:002017-05-21T10:12:48.492-04:00Trusting My Father<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Do I do this? Truly seek the kingdom of God and His righteousness first? Really first? Above all other concerns in my life? Do I think about it and strive for it more than doing my job well, taking care of my house, worrying about finances, concerns about our old car, the house needing painting, getting new clothes, old wounds, what others think of me, my children, what I'm going to cook for dinner.....? Paying the bills when they come? Getting out of debt? Is the kingdom of God and His righteousness my FIRST concern?<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">"The great concern of our lives is not the kingdom of God but how we are going to take care of ourselves to live. Jesus reversed the order by telling us to get the right relationship with God first, maintaining it as the primary concern of our lives, and never to place our concern on taking care of the other things of life." (Oswald Chambers)</span><br />
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I don't get this right. I stumble on this one. But, you know what? I think it's getting better. The Lord just keeps pounding this one home again and again. Over and over again in my life. I need to trust Him! Not my money, not my job status, not my 403b, not my investments...nor my savings. I have come to the conclusion that the Lord never intended me to be wealthy...or financially independent. Every time we seem to be doing better with money...along comes another trial. Our car needing major work done on it. Another child going off to college. Another emergency room visit. And every time one of these trials comes along (and it seems to be often), He shows us that it's all going to be okay. We are never hungry. We have a place to live, we keep breathing.<br />
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<span style="font-family: "trebuchet ms" , sans-serif;">Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothes? Matthew 6:25</span><br />
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We have everything that we need. I have made a resolution that I will not worry anymore about our retirement. I know he will provide for us. This does not mean we can be stupid with our money. We will still save, choose wisely what we will purchase, forgo the purchase of the yacht...I will still contribute to my 403b and Jamie will still contribute to his 401k, but we will not worry about being years behind in our retirement.<br />
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I will trust the Lord and seek Him first. I will trust Him. I will allow Him to be in the driver's seat of my life. I won't worry about what road He will take me down. I won't worry about where I will live or how I will clothe or feed myself when I get there. I will trust Him and enjoy the journey.<br />
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Isn't that the truth?Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-86032475285009284632017-05-10T22:20:00.002-04:002017-06-18T10:36:10.070-04:00Take the initiative <b>Add to your faith virtue... 2 Peter 1:5</b><br />
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Today's devotional from Oswald Chambers is about taking initiative. It is about developing habits of prayer, Bible study, and devotion. It's crazy that as usual, I am reading in a devotional the exact thing that I am hearing the Lord tell me. I am simply out of the habit of spending regular time with him. A long time ago, hardly a day went by that I did not do a devotional. I remember filling notebook pages full of notes and thoughts on scripture. I remember writing out lists of names of people I was praying for. I am ashamed that now it is the opposite. Hardly a day goes by where I spend the time I need to with the Lord.<br />
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The enemy has been attacking me vigorously and visciously with terrible painful memories. Ones that make me angry and feel resentment. I have trouble sleeping during these times. I will go to bed and fall asleep immediately, and then around three o'clock AM or so, that awful snake will wake me up to torture me. I got to school fairly early two days ago, around 6:45, and I read a devotional book that I have on my desk. It was about Shadrach, Meshach and Abednego going through the flames and how the Lord was with them. I know the Lord is with me through the flames...but I know that those three men took initiative every single day to walk closely with the Lord. They were able to realize his presence with them. I remember thinking to myself that I ought to make a habit of doing a devotional every single morning at work...and yesterday I forgot. Today I forgot at first and then I remembered,...but was immediately distracted by an article that I needed to find for a teacher about language development in children. Later, as I was packing up for the day...I saw my lonely devotional sitting on my desk....<i>Streams in the Desert.</i><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-size: 22px;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;">We are in danger of forgetting that we cannot do what God does, and that God will not do what we can do. We cannot save nor sanctify ourselves— God does that. But God will not give us good habits or character, and He will not force us to walk correctly before Him.</span></span><br />
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So true. So true...and I know it. I've known this forever and I've been ignoring it. Now I just need to simply act upon that knowledge.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"><span style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif;">Beware of the tendency to ask the way when you know it perfectly well. Take the initiative— stop hesitating— take the first step. Be determined to act immediately in faith on what God says to you when He speaks, and never reconsider or change your initial decisions. (Chambers)</span></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">We have to get into the habit of carefully listening to God about everything, forming the habit of finding out what He says and heeding it. If, when a crisis comes, we instinctively turn to God, we will know that the habit has been formed in us. We have to take the initiative where we </span><em style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #555555; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 18px;">are</em><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">, not where we have not yet been.(Chambers)</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;"><i>The thing I am blessed in is my poverty. If I know I have no strength of will, no nobility of disposition, then Jesus says — Blessed are you, because it is through this poverty that I enter His Kingdom. I cannot enter His Kingdom as a good man or woman, I can only enter it as a complete pauper. (Oswald Chambers)</i></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;"><i><br /></i></span>Understanding my poverty...that I am nothing of myself. I have not earned the title of "Christian" or "Child of God." I <i>cannot</i> earn this. This is actually comforting because if I <i>could</i> earn it, if it were up to me and my abilities or my goodness to enter the Kingdom of God...I would surely fail. I must recognize this and understand my poverty. This poverty makes it impossible to <i>decide</i> for Christ, because being a Christian is really all about yielding to Him. (We are back on that "surrendering of our rights and allowing him to work" theme that the Lord keeps hammering home to me) <br />
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I know what I am, in and of myself, with decisions. I am not saying that I am a fickle person. No. Not at all. There are things that I have decided long ago. I have decided that I would not use drugs or alcohol. I have decided that I would never be unfaithful to my husband. I have decided that I would always pay my taxes. I have decided that I would never cheat or steal. I have decided that I would commit to being a part of a community of believers in a church.....you get the picture. I <i>did</i> decide to follow Christ when I was 14 years old. That was a decision and commitment. I don't think that is what Chambers is talking about here. I think he means that we are people. People who fail...who get side-tracked. Get busy and forget or don't bother to take the time for prayer and worship and study. We are people who disappoint others that we love because we are not perfect. If it was up to <i>my</i> power of consistent decision, I wouldn't make the cut.<br />
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Instead, I yield to him. It is a constant learning curve. Yielding is surrendering our trust in ourselves and our own ability to get us there and trusting instead in <i>His</i> ways of getting us there. I cannot control everything that happens on this earth. I cannot stop the storms from coming my way. I cannot stop the tsunami from hitting me blindside and turning my life upside down...wounding me. I cannot make others around me understand my struggles with a mood disorder. I choose to raise my children the best that I can possibly raise them, but I cannot ultimately decide for them how to live out their lives. I must yield to Christ. When it hurts, when my life is in pieces...and when everything is going great, I must yield to Him. (Sometimes the latter is actually the hardest time to yield to Him)<br />
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In yielding to Him in this way, we serve in the Kingdom of God in the best way. If we yield...we serve.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"><i>Which are the people who have influenced us most? Not the ones who thought they did, but those who had not the remotest notion that they were influencing us. (Chambers)</i></span><br />
<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"><i><br /></i></span>Who has influences me the most for Christ here on earth? Simply by yielding up their lives to the Lord and living for Him? A quick look at my memory: Mrs. M DeVries, Mrs. J DeVries, Mrs. M Lamberts, Mom and Dad, Mrs. Lowater, the O'Learys, J Rowell, R Chinnici, A Falke, C Lazenby, C Meitner, W Connell, G Pulver, B Miller....<br />
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On that list there are only 3 men. Not that men cannot have a godly influence on me...but it shows me how important it is for women to have other women in their lives. I think most of these people would be surprised to find themselves on the list. They are ordinary people. They lived ordinary lives. None of them are famous. I cannot help but wonder if I have been of any influence to anyone. I know that this devotional discourages us from wondering about that, but I do. Have I touched anyone? Have I made any difference?<br />
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I guess that I can atleast claim that I am commonplace, and perhaps by being so, Jesus can be at work in me and around me...and even through me.
Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-81904384356098970742016-08-18T16:25:00.001-04:002017-03-05T23:01:33.801-05:00Selling All I Have<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Yesterday's devotional seemed so familiar that I went in search of the archives to see if I had looked at it another year. It turned out that I looked at today's devotional in <a href="http://onestepatatime-pj.blogspot.com/2012/08/have-you-ever-been-expressionless-with.html" target="_blank">2012</a>, which is very similar.<br />
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What am I going to pull out of it this year?<br />
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<span style="color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;"><i><span style="background-color: white;">Has God’s Word ever come to you, pointing out an area of your life, requiring you to yield it to Him? Maybe He has pointed out certain personal qualities, desires, and interests, or </span><span style="background-color: yellow;">possibly relationships of your heart and mind. </span><span style="background-color: white;">(Chambers)</span></i></span><br />
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My mind. My heart. My mind works overtime quite often. It rants and raves about things I can't do anything about. Things I can't change. My heart is often disappointed when I have higher expectations in my life. I often feel like I have a right to hold on to these rants and disappointments, but the Lord has shown me that I do not have that right. I must <i>yield</i> it to Him.<br />
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It's really hard to yield sometimes, but you know what? It's even harder to live life <i>not</i> yielding it to Him.<br />
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<i><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">“Sell all that you have…” (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Luke+18:22" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; text-decoration: none;">Luke 18:22</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">). In other words, rid yourself before God of everything that might be considered a possession until you are a mere conscious human being standing before Him, and then give God that. (Chambers)</span></i><br />
<i><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"><br /></span></i>Selling all I have isn't enough. He wants <i>me</i>. And what does that mean? What does it truly mean to give myself fully to Him? I can't give myself fully to Him until I "sell all that I have." What do I need to sell?<br />
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<li>Anger</li>
<li>Bitterness</li>
<li>Memories that bring regret or grief</li>
<li>Pride</li>
<li>Resentment</li>
<li>Brokenness</li>
<li>Disappointment</li>
<li>Expectations</li>
<li>My time</li>
<li>Mental health issues....and pride again</li>
<li>Secrets</li>
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That is just a quick list the Holy Spirit has just shown me. Each of these can be broken down. I need to be authentic and transparent. I haven't always been this.</div>
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Here's another thought that Chambers adds to the end of the devotional.</div>
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Loving Jesus is the ultimate goal. I can't do that without selling the "junk in my house." The junk listed above. All that stuff is the fruit of self-love.</div>
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Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-53501719921892726872016-08-17T19:31:00.003-04:002016-08-18T09:59:37.690-04:00Learning to Listen...and Obey<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: "open sans" , "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 18px;">…Jesus…said to him, "You still lack one thing. Sell all that you have…and come, follow Me." But when he heard this, he became very sorrowful, for he was very rich. —</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?version=31&search=Luke+18%3A22-23" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: 'Open Sans', Verdana, sans-serif; font-size: 18px; text-decoration: none;" target="_blank">Luke 18:22-23</a><br />
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Today's devotional, my friends is amazing. I'm thinking, what could I possibly add to that? It seems as though Chambers says it perfectly...and clearly. I can relate to it and can think of specific examples in my own life. Times when I heard Him speak to me and I didn't like what I heard. Just like the young ruler, I went away sorrowful.<br />
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Here are some gems from today's devotional.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;"><i>Jesus says a tremendous amount to us that we listen to, but do not actually hear.</i></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"><i>Our Lord never pleaded with him; He never tried to lure him— He simply spoke the strictest words that human ears have ever heard, and then left him alone.</i></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"><i>Jesus did not go after him, but let him go. Our Lord knows perfectly well that once His word is truly heard, it will bear fruit sooner or later. What is so terrible is that some of us prevent His words from bearing fruit in our present life.</i></span><br />
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I can think of a couple of very specific times when the Lord spoke to me clearly. I didn't like what I heard Him say. I wanted what I wanted. I didn't want to do things the Lord's way...I wanted things my way instead. I made excuses for the words I heard. I told myself it was my imagination. Both times when I heard the Lord speak to me it caught me off guard and I said, "What?!? Was that you, Lord? What did you say?" I wanted more clarification. I wanted to hear it in a more comfortable way. Both times, my startled reactions were met with silence. God never has to repeat Himself. He makes Himself very clear the first time. We don't always have to understand why or how...just believe and obey.<br />
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The first time He spoke to me directly, I really didn't like it...and went and did my own thing. I did what I wanted instead. I have looked back in repentance, sorrow and regret. I paid the price for not listening, believing, or obeying. I still pay the price in sorrow and loss, just as He predicted I would. But the last line of Chambers' devotional struck me. Here it is:<br />
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<i style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: '"merriweather"', '"georgia"', serif; font-size: 18px;">One thing is certain— He will never throw our past failures back in our faces.</i><br />
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It is not the Lord that throws that failure into my face, but it is I. I throw my own failures back into my own face and I need to stop this! By doing this, I have not accepted the Lord's forgiveness, grace, and mercy. He's over it. He has moved on. I'm the one who is stuck with not forgiving myself.<br />
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The second specific time that I am thinking of was a time when the Lord's words brought me sorrow. I didn't want to accept them as truth. In fact, I protested and argued. I didn't believe. I didn't think I could bear what he told me would come true. For a long time it was a source of sorrow and I asked, "Why, Lord?" But slowly over time His words brought me comfort and I saw them as loving protection. They have also brought me assurance that what He says stands firm. I can firmly rest on what He tells me is so.<br />
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I am ever so grateful that He didn't just give up on me or zap me when I chose rebellion, whining, and disbelief. He is so patient. His words eventually bore fruit.<br />
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Photo by me: Adirondack Mountains.<br />
<br />Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-17900792952375567822016-08-16T23:20:00.001-04:002016-08-30T16:42:39.499-04:00He Knows My Name<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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This is comforting...in this world that has a current population of approximately 7.4 billion people, He knows not only <i>my</i> name, but He knows each and every <i>one</i> of us by name. I'm a librarian at a high school with approximately 800 students. I struggle with those names. That's one thing I wish I was better at, but 4.7 billion people?!?....not to mention the billions of people who have lived and died!<br />
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<i><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">But Thomas doubted, saying, “Unless I see…I will not believe” (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+20:25" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; text-decoration: none;">John 20:25</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">). Thomas needed the personal touch of Jesus. </span><span style="background-color: yellow; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">When His touches will come we never know, but when they do come they are indescribably precious.</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"> “Thomas…said to Him, ‘My Lord and my God!’ ” (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+20:28" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 18px; text-decoration: none;">John 20:28</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">).</span></i><br />
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I have experienced His personal touch, on a couple of occasions. Those moments have been amazing. I haven't always appreciated the personal touches when they came to me because sometimes they came in the form of a message that I didn't want to receive. I didn't like what He said, but years later when I looked back and saw how his messages came true...I have been amazed. Other touches left me spellbound...like <a href="http://scillyspot.blogspot.com/2013/04/a-winter-storyguidance-through-storm.html" target="_blank">this one</a>.<br />
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There was another time where I was touched with His power and it was actually frightening. I was 12 years old and going through some personal doubts. I was laying in bed, with my hand resting on the headboard. I said to the Lord, "If you are real, God...then touch my hand." I instantly felt a tingling in my hand that grew stronger and stronger and then flowed through my entire body. I swear that I levitated a bit off the mattress. It really was one of the most frightening experiences I have ever had. I remember crying out to Him that okay okay, I believed. I wanted the sensation to stop. It did after only a second or two. My heart was beating out of my chest. I went downstairs and wandered a bit around the house and got a drink. When I had settled down, I went back to bed. I know it sounds silly, but I always avoided resting my hand on the headboard after that. Even all the way up through high school and when I returned home as a young adult before moving out. For years I told no one and since then I have told very few people about this experience because I was sure that no one would believe me. It just seemed too incredible! How do you tell people you levitated off of a mattress?<br />
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As frightening as it was, it was truly precious. He knew my name. He heard this little 12 year old girl and cared enough to show her exactly how real He is! I admit that I was also being a little cocky and He really put me in my place!<br />
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I can name more times like <a href="http://scillyspot.blogspot.com/2015/08/an-unexpected-answer-to-prayer.html" target="_blank">this one</a>...and <a href="http://scillyspot.blogspot.com/2015/11/the-miracle-of-eggs.html" target="_blank">this one too</a>.<br />
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I could tell more. These experiences have come few and far between...but they show me that God
sees me as an individual. He notices what is going on in my life. He cares to stop and speak to me.<br />
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Photo of me by my husband. Reading at the Adirondack Reader in Inlet, NY.</be>Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-19434548392680468692016-08-15T17:57:00.002-04:002016-08-16T23:37:14.750-04:00Blessings Through Raindrops-The Discipline of the LordBecause I am a bit of a night owl, I will sometimes be up past my bedtime, poking around the internet and reading. Sometimes I even pull up Oswald Chambers' Devotional. Last night I did that and posted. Then today when I pulled it up, I noticed that it was the same devotional I had done around 11:00 or so last night. That is because whoever is in charge of the blog I link to in order to get to the devotional is<i> not </i>a nightowl apparently and makes sure that it is updated for the following day before they go off to bed. That saying: Since I did today's devotional last night, this is yesterday's devotional that I will do today.<span style="background-color: white; color: #444444; font-family: "open sans" , "verdana" , sans-serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 27px;"><br /></span>
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So...I'm supposed to just sit there and take it? Yep...that's what the devotional says. That really is surrendering your rights. There's actually more to it then simpy sitting back and taking it. The scripture says that I'm not to be discouraged. I can think of another scripture that tells us to trust in Him, not to try to attach your own human understanding to your situation, and to also acknowledge Him in everything-even when life sucks (Proverbs 3:5). Everything the Lord plans for us has a purpose. I've got to keep believing that. I <i>do</i> believe that. In the thick of things though...it certainly is easy to say..."Why?" Heck! Even after things settle down a bit it's still easy to say, "Why?"<br />
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I know that we will not always understand things on this side of heaven. What is the purpose of life? Is it to have everything go right all the time? We make our plans, and then everything works out and we live happily ever after? If that was the case, what would ever convince us that we really <i>need</i> the Lord? The things in my life have often served to convince me that I need God.<br />
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<li>Mommy's best friend committing suicide. Having to shoulder that at age 5.</li>
<li>Scary outbursts of anger that my brother exhibited when I was just a little girl. His drug abuse, alcoholism and rebellion affected us all.</li>
<li>Feeling like I had to hide that from people.</li>
<li>Two policemen knocking on the front door in 1983 to tell my family that my older brother was found dead in his apartment in Dallas, TX</li>
<li>Being side-slammed by a mental illness in college and then consequently losing someone who had been my best friend.</li>
<li>Suffering for years with anxiety that was crippling. Not knowing what my problem was.</li>
<li>Getting married and then having one financial issue after another happen to us. It was like being in a choppy sea...trying to keep your head up.</li>
<li>Not being able to find a job...</li>
<li>Having someone suddenly tell you that your dad has only 3 months to live at most...and then see him die just 3 <i>weeks</i> later.</li>
<li>Your mother having dementia. Trying to figure out with your siblings how to care for her and keep her safe. (Thank you my big sister! I'll be forever indebted to you and your selflessness)</li>
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Really? Is that it? That's all? I don't see a concentration camp listed here...or wrongful inprisonment! I don't think I've really had that rough of a life and I don't think this is a list of discipline from the Lord. What does that song say? <i>Sometimes our blessings come through raindrops.</i></div>
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<i><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 29px;">Am I fully prepared to allow God to grip me by His power and do a work in me that is truly worthy of Himself? </span><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px; line-height: 29px;">Sanctification is not my idea of what I want God to do for me— sanctification is God’s idea of what He wants to do for me. But He has to get me into the state of mind and spirit where I will allow Him to sanctify me completely, whatever the cost.</span></i></div>
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Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-90238284194258627502016-08-14T22:52:00.001-04:002016-08-15T15:11:59.667-04:00Falling Prostrate Before Him<br />
<span style="color: #741b47;">When I saw Him, I fell at his feet as though dead. Then He places His right hand on me and said, "Do not be afraid. I am the First and the Last. I am the Living One; I was dead, and now look, I am alive forever and ever! And I hold the keys of death and Hades." Revelation 1:17-18</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">The answer to Nicodemus’ question, “How can a man be born when he is old?” is: Only when he is willing to die to everything in his life, </span><span style="background-color: yellow; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">including his rights</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">, his virtues, and his religion, and becomes willing to receive into himself a new life that he has never before experienced (</span><a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=John+3:4" style="-webkit-tap-highlight-color: rgba(0, 0, 0, 0); -webkit-text-size-adjust: 100%; box-sizing: border-box; color: #559664; font-family: Merriweather, Georgia, serif; font-size: 22px; text-decoration: none;">John 3:4</a><span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">). </span><br />
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The Lord has a way of driving it home again and again. Why can't I seem to get this right? I slip into my painful thinking over and over. It is a battle that never lets up! I get so exhausted from fighting it!<br />
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It's all about continual surrender. Life isn't fair. It downright stinks sometimes...and I actually have it pretty darned good compared to many in this world. It's because I sometimes still hurt inside over things that happened before. And the enemy will sneak over and start reminding me of how life was unfair to me and that it would be nice if......blah blah blah! And I fall for it.<br />
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I need to stop this!Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-78338898755305552592016-05-25T21:58:00.002-04:002017-05-21T10:43:33.775-04:00Thinking of Prayer as Jesus Taught<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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The emphasis of today's devotional is learning to pray continually and believing that God answers all our prayers. I am learning once again how to pray continually. At one time, I got it....but then it slipped away from me and now I must relearn it. I really like some of the things that Chambers writes in his devotional today.<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 22px;">The correct concept is to think of prayer as the breath in our lungs and the blood from our hearts. Our blood flows and our breathing continues “without ceasing”; we are not even conscious of it, but it never stops. And we are not always conscious of Jesus keeping us in perfect oneness with God, but if we are obeying Him, He always is. (Chambers)</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">...and it might not be in the way we were hoping He would answer....but we must always trust that He answers in the best way. I have a memory of begging the Lord not to take someone I loved away from me. I pleaded and begged and cried out again and again. He answered that prayer in the best way...by taking that person I loved away from me. By accepting the truth of this...that God knows best goes along with yesterday's lesson of surrendering my will to his. My right to what I thought would bring me the best marriage. The best happiness. It's hard to do this. It's handing over all of the controls to Him.</span><br />
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What does this scripture mean if it doesn't necessarily mean that we always get what we want? It means that we can be assured of an answer. That if it doesn't make sense to us...that we must trust Him and eventually a door of understanding will open. We need to knock and ask and believe.<br />
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Here's something else that Chambers writes:<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;">The danger we have is that we want to water down what Jesus said to make it mean something that aligns with our common sense. But if it were only common sense, what He said would not even be worthwhile. The things Jesus taught about prayer are supernatural truths He reveals to us.</span><br />
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I've experienced the supernatural and it is so cool! I believe you, Lord. You are doing a supernatural work in me. Thank you.<br />
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(Photo by Jennifer Boyer, Flickr Creative Commons)Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2131126218037597478.post-88539926929432992432016-05-24T21:36:00.001-04:002016-05-25T20:54:17.612-04:00The Good or the Best?<br />
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Today's devotional is all about a specific truth that the Lord has recently been driving home to me. Isn't that the way? Do you ever notice it? The Lord will show you some truth in scripture during your quiet time. On the drive to work, you turn on the radio...and a pastor is preaching the same point using the same scripture. On Sunday you show up to church and...you guessed it. Same truth....maybe in a different scripture...but the same truth of the Lord. I'm quite often in the remedial class of the Lord...where lessons are repeated often before I grasp them.<br />
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The Lord has been showing me that to follow Him I must surrender my rights. My right to fairness. My right to be understood. The right to have a misunderstanding from long ago clarified. The right to live in a house that is neatly trimmed out with fresh paint. Yes...I know that last one sounds silly....but that one hits home for me. The scripture today is about how Abram and Lot came to a place where they had to decide who ended up with what piece of land to live on. By rights, Abram should have had first dibs, but he surrendered that right to Lot. Lot chose the more fertile land. Abraham took what was left.<br />
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This has been a particularly difficult discipline for me to learn. I hesitate to even write the particulars here. For by writing about it....am I taking hold of my right to communicate the wrong committed against me years ago? And if I do that...do I have an alterier motive? Am I hoping a certain someone would read it and the truth would be told to him? I've already plowed ahead where I should not have in the past. I thought I had the right....but I should have surrendered it to the Lord. I paid the price. Look what eventually happened to Lot after he chose to pitch his tent close to Sodom. He was swept into the the sinful beliefs and points of view they held. Lot knew the Lord and was spared....but only barely escaped the flames.<br />
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And...it is never my right to hold a grudge against someone. In this case...I have held a grudge against my mother. I have dishonered her by rehearsing my anger against her. <span style="color: #a64d79;">"Forgive me, Father."</span><br />
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I placed the picture of my mother above...to remind me that she was a godly woman. She wasn't perfect. She caused me a great amount of pain...but I must not hold onto that grievance.<br />
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Quite often God's way doesn't make any sense. It is at those times that it is particularly difficult to surrender my rights. I don't understand the wounds He has inflicted upon me...but I must yield myself to Him and his choosing for me.<br />
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This is what He calls me to:<br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"><i>We will suffer a sharp painful disillusionment before we fully surrender. When people really see themselves as the Lord sees them, it is not the terribly offensive sins of the flesh that shock them, but the awful nature of the pride of their own hearts opposing Jesus Christ. When they see themselves in the light of the Lord, the shame, horror, and desperate conviction hit home for them.(Chambers)</i></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">It is so true....it is my pride that is the problem. That is the root of my sin. My pride was hurt....and I, in my sinful human thinking, believe somehow that I have a right to be relieved of that arrow to my pride. I believe that somehow it should be fixed. That I have rights and I become obsessed by it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;">"Lord Jesus, I surrender this pride...this demand for a fair hearing while I am on this earth. To be vindicated. Oh Lord....you gave me a burden to bear. It is heavy....but I must bear it because it is the test that will help me come forth as gold. To answer that prayer I lifted up to you many years ago....that you would make me into a godly woman..."no matter what it takes." You heard my prayer and answered me. You bent down and listened to me and then you placed me into the fire of your affliction. Do I have a right to argue the fairness of it to you, Lord? Do I have a right to choose what affliction I face? No. You are God and I will trust you. You give and take away. Holy Spirit, fill me up. Empower me against the lies of the enemy who seeks to drag me down...into the miry clay. It is all my pride. The enemy knows my pride and how it was wounded. He stabs at it regularly. Oh Jesus...I want to be victorious over this! How do I get the victory when I fail again and again?....to be thankful for it? Is that what I hear you saying? The hard eucharisto? Thank you for the trial you put me through. Thank you for the fire of your affliction. Thank you for the misunderstandings and the accusations and the pain....I hate thanking you for these things. I want to be obedient...but it is so hard to do. How can I thank you for it? ...oh Heavenly Father, bring me to that place of thankfulness and joy."</span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"><i>If you are faced with the question of whether or not to surrender, make a determination to go on through the crisis, surrendering all that you have and all that you are to Him. And God will then equip you to do all that He requires of you. (Chambers)</i></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #555555; font-family: "merriweather" , "georgia" , serif; font-size: 18px;"><i><br /></i></span>Priscillahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17112988669895238674noreply@blogger.com0