Thursday, September 2, 2010
Day 10-I'm not a beautifully rounded grape...but is there sweetness within me?
I guess my first confession is to admit that I almost forgot to do this today. I got up and ran off to clean a house. On the way there, I had to drop Alicia and a friend off somewhere. After I cleaned, I was running late to pick Alicia back up. When I got home there was a message on the phone asking me if I would please pick up Sarah when I picked up Audra. I then ran off to pick up Audra (and Sarah). I got home and took a shower, sat down and read some thing and started to fall asleep. I then rushed around to make dinner. Allen did not come home for dinner. Jamie did not come home for dinner. Alicia said she didn't feel like eating. Audra kept me waiting at the dinner table. I started eating by myself. Dinner was tasteless and dried out.
Now I need to run off and pick up Allen.
Now I am back. I guess this goes to show me why people do quiet times first thing in the morning. They do it because it is built into the quieter part of the day...before things get hectic.
John 7:38 "Whoever believes in me as the scripture has said, streams of living water will flow within him."
Somehow, I am not feeling the flow. Is God pouring anything through me? I don't feel spiritual or like a light. Is my light shining before men? Can they see it? I often only feel failure.
Here is an interesting quote from Chambers:
It is not that God makes us beautifully rounded grapes, but that He squeezes the sweetness out of us.
Is sweetness coming out of me? I can think of people whom I consider to be sweet. Am I one of those that others thinks is sweet?
I'm just trying to take a good hard look at myself lately and ask myself if I am someone who is positive to others. Do people like me? Do they want to be around me? Are they attracted by the light within me?
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