God's Purpose, or Mine?

I just loved today's devotional. So applicable to what the Lord is teaching me.

The question of whether or not we arrive at a particular goal is of little importance, and reaching it becomes merely an episode along the way. What we see as only the process of reaching a particular end, God sees as the goal itself.

What is my vision of God’s purpose for me? Whatever it may be, His purpose is for me to depend on Him and on His power. If I can stay calm, faithful, and unconfused while in the middle of the turmoil of life, the goal of the purpose of God is being accomplished in me....What He desires for me is that I see “Him walking on the sea” with no shore, no success, nor goal in sight, but simply having the absolute certainty that everything is all right because I see “Him walking on the sea” Mark 6:49It is the process, not the outcome, that is glorifying to God. (Oswald Chambers)

I am seeing this to be more and more true in my life. I've had many goals in life that actually have never come to fruition. I'm 48 years old...and some of them just aren't going to happen. I'm learning to accept that this is okay. Life is about the journey, not all of the accomplishments we make.

Lately, I've been looking for a job as a school librarian. I have had interview after interview...with no luck. It has hurt very much. For the last few months I have heard the word "surrender." It's like God has been whispering that word in my ear. So I'm learning to surrender this to the Lord. I'm learning to trust that even if I never get a job as a school librarian, it is going to be okay...because I see Jesus walking on the waves of my stormy sea. Just as he has done for me in even stormer weather.

What is His goal for me? It is for me to love and trust and follow Him to the end. To keep my eyes on the prize. To keep running. To know that he is able to walk on the stormiest seas in this life.